22nd October 2015, Thursday.
I woke up early that day. Feeling a bit worried and curious like a cat. Nurses send my report to the gynae to see if there any progress from my contraction last night. Alhamdulillah. Around 11.00am, my gynae came in and told me that I'm progressing while holding a stick. Oh god. I am super duper nervous and scared. She did tried to break my water, but nope didn't worked. So she told me to get ready to go labour room. Few minutes later, nurse came in with a wheelchair. I told her it's okay. I can walk. She's impressed and I am so proud! (Well without knowing what gonna happen next). Walking peacefully to the labour room just across the corridor of our ward. Oh hello bed. I met you twice!
11.30am
Midwife starts to drip me. She said I'll fall asleep maybe around an hour. She also told hubs to get his lunch or he might not gonna get the chance to eat later. zzz
12.00pm
I can barely open my eyes. I realise it was my second pint or drip. I saw my MIL sat next to me.I closed my eyes again.
12.30pm
I saw my mum! Mama kept on holding my head. She's worried I guess. Suddenly I felt my water broke. I'm in shocked. Told Mama that I want to see hubs. She immediately went out and inform the midwife about me. Hubs came in, just at the right time. I was only 3cm.
1.00pm
The adventure began. At that time, my contraction was really-really-really painful. Hubs keeps holding my hand. Gave me water and dates. But at some point I can even open my eyes. Super painful. Happy gas doesn't really worked as expected. It does reduce the pain just few minutes before it started again. The contraction is real.
2.00pm
I started scream here and there. Maybe I did scare few other patients next door.(Sorry!) Hubs kept on asking if I need epidural. I was so macho saying NO! I was sure that my pain tolerance is high enough to endure. NO!
2.30pm
Hurm. Not working. Final call if i want to have epidural. I told hubs, YES YES, I want. Not so macho anymore. The anaesthetic specialist went down to my room. Since, I'm in pain the doctor can't take the risk to insert the needle in sitting position. So, he insert the needle while me laying and facing my left. I keep on calling hubs to not let go my hand. I am super scared.
3.30pm
The pain didn't go away yet. Aaaa. The specialist kindda pity me. He advised hubs to let me take spinal anaesthetic now or I wont be able to push later. Hubs came straight to me and asked me if I can bare the pain or not. I told him, I'm in pain. So pain. Therefore, another YES to spinal anaesthetic. Fuh.
3.45pm
I get to rest and feel bit better. Just the right amount to anaesthetic. I can still feel when the contraction coming. There's 2 midwives assisting me now. And my hubs, who kept on giving me Zam Zam water. Thank god for the existence of straw. I can sip my drink peacefully. The midwives called my gynea. Informed her that I'm about to push out my baby. She told hubs to look underneath and told me he can already sees the baby head. His hair very visible I guess.
4.00pm
My gynae arrived just in time. She wore her yellow flowered cooking apron, face mask, gloves and big giant medical glass. I feel like laughing now. HEHE. She told hubs to make me look pretty since the baby is coming out any time now. Hubs cleaned my face and tied my hair. Feel refresh. Once a while, when there's contraction I will start to push and push. Honestly, I never attend any birth class. So now it's a real experience and real class. Tip one, when ever there's a contraction you gotta push. Tip two, down lift your bump up or it gonna make your tear much more larger. Tip three, dont scream or you might be out of breath aka tired.
4.16pm
My dear baby is out from the oven. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah.
“Any time a woman leaves this world because of labor pains, on the Day of Judgement, Allāh will raise her from the grave pure and without an account (of sins), because such a woman has given her life due to the hardship and pain of labour .” [Bihār al-Anwār, vol. 101, pg. 108]
“Every time a woman becomes pregnant, during the whole period of pregnancy she has the status of one who fasts, one who worships during the night, and one who fights for Allah with her life and possessions. And when she is giving birth, Allah grants her so much reward that nobody knows its limit because of its greatness. And when she is giving milk to her child, for every suck of the child, Allah gives her the reward of freeing a slave from the children of Ismā’īl, and when the period of breastfeeding the child is finished, one of the great angels of Allah taps her side and says: “Start your deeds afresh, for Allah has forgiven all your minor sins.” [al-Kāfī, vol. 5, pg. 496]
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